1. Sometimes, I think the worst disease we have as women is people pleasing, and I am glad as He is in control.

    1. This is so true, Rebecca! People pleasing has plagued me far too long and I agree that simply knowing God and resting in His control frees us to live abundantly outside of the worries of what people think. Thanks for sharing!

  2. As a recovering control freak, I can relate well to your words, Carrye! Thank you for being transparent and reminding me that surrendering IS being brave!

    1. I’m glad to know I’m not alone, Crystal! I’ll probably always be a “recovering” control freak to some extent…but when I look back I can see the beauty in letting go. I’m grateful there’s so much grace for our imperfect journeys! 🙂

  3. Rachel, I haven’t visited your place for a while, so I’m behind on this series, but happy to read Carrye’s story today.
    And thank you, Carrye, for this encouragement. I struggle with letting go of things, and I agree that handing things over to God — no strings attached — is truly an act of brave faith!

    1. Hello Michele! May God reveal so much more of Himself to us both as we learn to let go and let Him take over. Thanks for commenting, and blessings to you on your journey with Him!

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      Thanks, Michele. I’m excited because the #BeBoldGirl series has really taken off in 2018 and I can’t wait to see what God will do through the stories being shared. All the glory is to Him.

  4. I have had seizures and was diagnosed with epilepsy in my twenties. Every bad or weird feeling I had would give me anxiety for years, and the medicine makes anxiety worse. God knows I want control and that surrender is tough, but He brings me back to Him every time! I can’t imagine what people do who aren’t Christians.

    1. Oh Sarah…though I can’t fully know what it’s like to walk in your shoes, I sympathize with you in your journey. I have low-grade anxiety about many things on a normal basis, and anytime my glucose numbers dip low it mimics a feeling of panic which usually causes actual panic. Sometimes I feel like no one understands and that feeling of isolation can create anxiety too. I agree…if I didn’t have my God to hold onto I don’t know what I’d do. Do you have any advice for ways you turn to God in the middle of that anxiety?

  5. I can so relate to this! I have had type 1 diabetes for 20 years now, which means quite a few years of trying to be on top of my diabetes and take care of my health. I definitely have the tendency to try control everything — and I always fail at it, of course. This is a beautiful way of looking at surrender, though. It’s easy to look at surrendering and feel the challenge of it. Yet it somehow makes it seem easier when I think that I can grow and have more courage. Thank you for sharing this, Carrye!

    1. You’re welcome, Ronja! Whenever I meet type 1s I always want to sit and talk for hours (and probably cry a little) over all the things that make up a diabetic life. My default is still control as well, but aside from teaching me to rely on God more, diabetes ultimately lead me to adopt, and it drives me to live fully knowing that life isn’t something to take for granted. I hope you continue to find Him in your journey, and that as you look back over your life you can see the beauty He has woven in the brokenness.

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